How to Get Out of Your Head and Into Your Heart

Our minds are meant to gather information, break down thoughts, and rationalize information flowing to us through all our senses. And our minds are marvelous tools that help us organize and process data, but it's easy to get caught up in the thinking mind, or the "monkey mind" as I like to call it. And this can unfortunately cause us to dial down our other senses and ignore some of our most powerful tools, like the power of our heart.

Our heart is one of our greatest assets because, when accessed, we can determine what is truth and what is in alignment with us. But many of us forget that our heart can "see" and "think". In fact, shamanic communities around the world have been using the energy of the heart to see into other realms and bring through guidance and wisdom.

In fact, you may be surprised to find that when you pose a question to the mind, you get a totally different answer than when you ask your heart. Don't believe me? Then try this easy mediation to listen in to what your heart has to say!

Try this easy technique to de-stress and get out of your head and into your heart! It’s amazing how different life can feel, and how easy it can be to get clear intuitive answers about what’s best for you when you are grounded and centered in your heart!

 

How I Became The Shamanatrix

Sometimes you just have to get real.
 
Tell the truth.
 
Be at your most vulnerable so you can be the most real version of yourself possible.
 
Sometimes you have to step out of your comfort zone so you can step into your power and step into the best version of yourself possible.
 
Own your shadow. Embrace your light.
 
Today I just did the scariest and most uncomfortable thing I’ve ever done or dreamed of doing. I put myself out there on YouTube, telling my story of who I am, how I got here, and why I’m so passionate about what I do.
 
And I got real.
 
This was incredibly hard for me because I know how controversial and dark some of my story is. Maybe you already know some of my story and my colorful past, maybe that’s why we’re connected now, or maybe you have no idea who I was or what I went through to get here.
 
But at the end of the day—my shadowy past, and my unique experiences I’ve had along the road of life—are the reason I’m doing this shamanic healing work. And for all it, I am eternally grateful.
 
For the last year I’ve been working hard behind the scenes to create a new platform for sharing the same shamanic tools that have given me purpose, power, and a second chance at life.
 
I’ve been working on rebranding and re-launching as “The Shamanatrix” because I’m ready to own every aspect of my self, my story and my purpose, and because I want to offer you even more tools to reclaim your power and your life.
 
Because YOU’RE worth it. Every little bit of you. Every smidgen. Every freckle. Every flaw. Because you are your own closest ally. Especially when you embrace every bit of your self, whether you like all of those parts or not.
 
See, we all have shadow and sometimes we run from our past, our traumas, our stories and we intentionally disown some part of our self that could actually be our most powerful part. But that usually just causes more pain, self-splitting and sadness.
 
And it’s these wounds that want our love, acceptance and attention so we can truly heal them and embrace them for the wisdom and power they contain.
 
So today I want to challenge you to give a little bit more love to yourself.
All of yourself.
 
Especially the parts that maybe you don’t usually value, nurture or nourish. I want you to cut yourself a break and be gentle and easy on that part of yourself. And I want you to embrace it with everything you’ve got. And thank this part of yourself for existing, for showing up as a powerful teacher.
 
And then I want you to listen. And see what beautiful message this part of you has for yourself. Because I bet you there’s loads of wisdom in that little part of yourself. And sometimes we’ve got to get real with ourselves to get at it.
 
But I guarantee there’s a message there for you.
And that it’s gold, and that if you embrace it, accept it and love it exactly as is, that you’ll begin to love yourself more and become even more awesomely powerful than you already are.
 
So will you do that for me?
 
Will you do that for you?
 
I hope you do. Because I want to see you shine, my friend. I really do.
 
And I want you to check out my story of how I became The Shamanatrix. Because I’m ready to get real with you. And because I want to continue this dialogue and offer you a ton of free meditations, journeys, and information about shamanic healing because I want you to have all the tools possible to be in your power and shine your radiant light.
 
Because you’re worth it.
 
So make sure to subscribe to my channel to learn more! I’ll be offering free videos on my new YouTube Channel, The Shamanatrix Corner, every two weeks. You won't wanna miss any of it…I promise.

How I Became the Shamanatrix
 
Big hugs and high fives for embracing all of your fantastic self! Magic until next time,
 
Kristen Boyer
The Shamanatrix

Strengthening the Solar Plexus

Woohoo! It’s Springtime and I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling this super fun, fiery Aries flow this week because so many wonderful things are going on like an awesome chakra Webinar and my YouTube Channel launch!
 
Briana and I have been working hard on our chakras for the last month, putting together an awesome Healing Through the Chakras Course and we’re getting geared up for our next Webinar THIS Wednesday, April, 5th.

 

(LIVE Webinar, 1.5 CE's) Healing the Solar Plexus

Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies

 
LIVE Webinar: April 5th, 2017 @ 8pm

Applicable for self help and mental health professionals.

(1.5 Live event, continuing education contact hours for LCATs in New York State.)

At the inner core of each of us spin wheel-like energy centers or vortices. These energy centers are referred to as "chakras" and each one reflects an aspect of our inner and outer experience, as well as the degree of consciousness we have around those experiences.

When these chakras are in balance they are able to integrate mind, body, and spirit. They help us organize our life force energy, and provide a powerful tool for mental, emotional, spiritual, social, and physical growth. But when they are out of balance, we may find ourselves continually stuck in old patterns, unable to evolve or break free.

Do you ever find yourself struggling with...

Standing in your power/standing up for what is right?

Delegating tasks and keeping organized?

Feeling like you are ‘enough’?

If so, you may be struggling with Solar Plexus imbalances.

 

These beliefs include three common myths:

"If I just had more_______then I could…" Whatever you have isn’t good enough.

"I’m not the expert, I’ll let someone else who knows more, with more experience than me to take charge."

"If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." Being strong means that I have to do everything on my own.

But are these myths true, or simply the product of limiting beliefs?

 

In this course, the Shamanatrix, Kristen Boyer MPS, HC and Briana MacWilliam ATR-BC, LCAT, will explore mindfulness-based practices in treatment, using the Solar Plexus as a frame for understanding the impact of energetic imbalances in the body. We will explore how these imbalances create limiting beliefs that perpetuate unhealthy patterns of living and loving, in adulthood.

Additionally, we debunk the above myths by exploring the the following truths:

Once you surrender to yourself, the doors will open for you.

You are just as worthy and as powerful as anyone else is! No one in the world has the same vibration, perspective and set of experiences as you do.

Being strong includes the ability to identify your needs and receive support from others.

After this webinar you will be able to…

  • Name the shadow aspect of the Solar Plexus.
  • Identify three “truths” about working with Solar Plexus.
  • Identify at least two observable behaviors of someone experiencing Solar Plexus imbalances.
  • Implement guided meditation and art making in working with Solar Plexus imbalances.

You will also receive…

  • A Guided meditation for the Solar Plexus
  • An outline of the presentation
  • Handouts to assist with working on Solar Plexus imbalances, in practice
  • A Free introductory Lecture to all 7 Chakras
  • A Free Introductory Guided meditation to all 7 Chakras

This will be a live webinar event, open to questions, comments and discussion with participants.

 
Make sure to log on because we’ll also be giving you access to a free introduction for our upcoming live mastermind Course, Healing Through the Chakras this summer! Score!
 
Make sure to join in for our live Webinar tomorrow at 8pm EST
JOIN HERE!

 
And then stay tuned for this Thursday when I’ll finally be launching my exciting new YouTube Channel, The Shamanatrix Corner. I’ve literally been slaving away at this project for over a year and I’m excited to share with you my first video this Thursday at 5pm. So keep your eyes peeled for my next email when I’ll be sharing the link with you and sharing my personal story and mission statement about the channel. I seriously can;t wait to share it with you!

Big hugs and Springtime love!

Kristen,
The Shamanatrix

February Updates and Classes

Hello my lovely community! How I've missed you all so much as I've been busy hibernating for the last few months, with my nose to the grindstone working hard on a number of fabulous projects that I can't with to share with all of you!
 
Firstly I hope you all had a wonderful start to the new year and have been manifesting everything you've been wanting in your life. Although we've been in a challenging shift with everything that's been going on in the world I hope you have been able to find peace within. These series of national events, including Trump's inauguration have been stirring up the collective shadow and many of you have been reaching out asking for help navigating the energy from the collective consciousness. My main advice has been to encourage you to remember what you love, what you desire and what you're passionate about and work diligently on creating what you want for your life for your community.

That being said, I can't wait to tell you about a NEW Live Mastermind Class I've been diligently developing for YOU with the wonderful and talented Art Therapist, Briana MacWilliam called Healing Through the Chakras Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies.
 
Check out an article Briana MacWilliam wrote on my blog! She’s fabulous!

In this Mastermind course we’ll be diving into each of the 7 Chakras, teaching you how to clear blockages, activate and manifest through each of your energy centers. This course gives you informative lectures on each of the Chakras, articles, art therapy exercises, quizzes to identify where you’re strong and where you’re stuck, and meditations to help you unlock, unblock and activate your energy centers!
 
But to get you warmed up for the upcoming Masterclass, we’ll be offering 7 Live Webinars on each of the Chakras. The Webinars will be $35 and go toward continuing education credits for Creative Arts therapists. So go ahead and mark these dates down in your calendar!
 
Root Chakra: Wednesday, March 8th at 8pm EST
Sacral Chakra: Wednesday, March 22nd at 8pm EST
Solar Plexus Chakra: Wednesday, April 5th at 8pm EST
Heart Chakra: Wednesday, April 19th at 8pm EST
Throat Chakra: Wednesday, May 3rd at 8pm EST
Third Eye Chakra: Wednesday, May 17th at 8pm EST
Crown Chakra: Wednesday, May 31st at 8pm EST

To Register for our first Root Chakra Webinar Click HERE

Speaking of manifesting what you want, I wanted to let you know that I will be offering my popular, Manifestation class live for the last time. It's been such a hit that I'm turning this one into an online course, but will be offering it again for one last time in person. But act fast on tickets because space is super limited!

Manifesting Your Heart's Desire: Using Ritual to Materialize Your Dreams

Sunday, March 19th 4-6:30pm
@
City Wellness Collective
141 West 28th street, Suite #301
New York, NY 10011

REGISTER HERE
 

3 Keys to Manifesting Your Dreams: The “Sacred Marriage” of Consciousness and Matter

3 Keys to Manifesting Your Dreams: The “Sacred Marriage” of Consciousness and Matter

Article and Artwork by Briana MacWilliam MPS, ATR-BC, LCAT

Article and Artwork by Briana MacWilliam MPS, ATR-BC, LCAT

 

How many of you, on the eve of 2017, pulled out a paper and pen, wrote down with due diligence your new year's resolutions, and then burned them, buried them, or folded them in a scented envelope and stuffed it under your mattress, with a prayer that your dreams may come true, in 356 days?

How much earnest intent did you bleed into those words, watching the paper burn? How many tears did you stuff in that envelope, your heart in your throat?

...And how long did it take before you gave up already? How much faith do you still have that you will see the manifestation of your intentions? That your wishes will be granted?

Why is it so easy to backslide into old patterns of living and loving? Why can’t we just seem to “get it together” enough to remedy our finances? To take that vacation we’ve been planning for years? To finish that project we started? Or to start that project we’ve been dreaming about for years?

The short answer: your energy is blocked.

The long answer: your energy is blocked, and if you want to unblock it, you would be best served by figuring out how energy works, so you can grease your wheels and get this buggy back on track!

How to do that?

I give you, the Chakra System.

The Chakra system is a philosophical model of the Universe. Chakras came to the West by means of the traditional practice of Yoga, which is a discipline that uses mental and physical practices to integrate matter and Spirit. This is achieved through several steps of  expanding consciousness; the Chakras represent these steps.

The main seven Chakras are created by the combination of two active principles, consciousness and matter. Consciousness may be perceived as entering through the crown chakra and moving downward through the body; I like to refer to as top-down processing, Anoeda Judith, in her book, eastern body western mind, refers to this as "the current of manifestation" (1996, p. 14). As the flow of consciousness moves down, the chakras and their related elements become increasingly dense, allowing for the embodiment of our dreams.

Secondly, we have an upward current, which moves from this place of density to ethereal consciousness. I call this bottom-up processing; Judith (1996) refers to this as "the current of liberation" (p.14). If we cannot create spaciousness around our more physical experiences, we cannot reflect, change, grow or expand. Similarly without the embodiment of intention, we remain scattered dreamers unable to make commitments or put our thoughts into action.

The combination of both currents is the ideal, and considered to be a "sacred marriage;" the congress of Heaven and earth. This union of opposites creates limitless possibilities.

When we are blocked in any one or more of our chakras, we may fall into habitual patterns that render us stuck, throwing us continually back into survival mode. Or, we may be unable to ground ourselves, lost in a flood of overwhelm and ideas, dissociated from the real world.

Unblocking a chakra requires addressing the problem on at least three levels: 1) clearing out the blockages, 2) clarifying your needs versus your wants, and 3) learning how to ask for what you want, and and be willing to embrace what you need, when it arrives.

  1. Clearing Out Energetic Blockages in the Chakras

The first step in manifesting your dreams involves a clearing out of energetic blockages in your chakras. Cleansing the chakras involves an acknowledgement and releasing of Karmic vows, soul contracts, and wounds of shame from past lives.There may also be ancestral wounds that we carry in our lineage.  

 

At best, these vows may simply be no longer serving us. At worst, these vows may be actively interfering in our lives now by keeping us from being all we can be today.

 

If your Higher Self has led you here, to this post, it means that you have fully experienced the outcomes of your action in taking the vows and you are ready to let them go.

 

All you need to do is ask!

 

  1. Clarifying Your Needs vs. Your Wants

 

But before you ask for a clearing in order to manifest the life of your dreams, you must clarify your needs versus your wants. And getting to the root of your desires means confronting whatever you dislike in your life as a reflection of your own shadow; a mirror of all the parts that you have repressed.

 

The “you” that is creating your own reality is your transcendental self in its entirety, which means it's more than likely you have limited conscious access to a large part of yourself that is calling in your life circumstances.

 

However, just because a large part of yourself is not knowable, it doesn’t mean that you have no power to create change in your life at all. But you must have the passion and the willingness to step outside of your comfort zone, which is the ONLY WAY  to get to the root of your desires.

 

To clearly examine your desires, you must step outside of judgment. It is the labeling of a desire as "bad" that sends it to the basement of repression. Rather, we should try to examine a desire for its underlying dynamics--what is the underlying need and fear?

 

Typically, a person’s desire is an externalized goal or reward (such as social approval and physical manifestations of it, like wealth or power) that he or she thinks will make him or her happy, but this pursuit actually impedes this person from getting what he or she needs internally (spiritual and emotional gratification).

 

For example, perhaps a girl felt ostracized as a child, so she wants to achieve celebrity because she thinks it will make people like her. But with celebrity achieved, she realizes that even though she might have millions of fans, they worship her as an object or a symbol of their own projections. In reality, people only like her for her popularity and she can’t trust anyone enough to engage in intimate relationships. The achievement of her external want actually prevented the gratification of her internal need to belong.

 

Sometimes, what you think you want won’t make you happy!

 

  1. Learning How to Ask for What You Want, and Embrace What you Need

 

By now you must be wondering…

 

“How do I know if what I want is a reflection of my Shadow Self, or a valid request in alignment with my authentic needs?”

 

The short answer, “The Universe will let you know.”

 

You might have heard this explained through The Law of Attraction, which is based on three principles of Quantum Physics:

 

  1. Everything is energy

  2. Everything is connected

  3. You create your own reality

 

Essentially, these principles amount to the idea that with concentrated energy and focused intention, you can change your reality in very real and physical ways. Particularly if your energy is “entangled” with another energy cluster (like, another person, for example).

 

Thus, “Ask and ye shall receive,” would appear to be both a scientific and spiritual truism. The only thing is, you might not realize you’ve gotten what you’ve asked for.

 

Because as we mentioned above, often we are not fully cognizant of our own motivations (or energetic frequencies) tied up in the question.

 

And frequently, the seed of want, is fear.

 

  • Fear of vulnerability…Leads to a desire to prove your strength

  • Fear of failure...Leads to  a desire to prove competence/capability

  • Fear of worthlessness...Leads to a desire to prove worthiness and seek approval

  • Fear of abandonment...Leads to a desire to prove your independence (or hold tighter)


 

Because of this, you may think to yourself…

 

“I'm writing all these affirmations and I'm trying so hard to do all the right things, yet I'm still getting the same results!"

 

In fact, you’re still doing the same thing, you're just reframing it. For example:

 

  • It’s not righteous to bully a bully, it's the same behavior repackaged from a different perspective.

  • It's not generous to give more than is asked, it's invasive and rooted in a desire to induce dependency, in order to acquire control and stave off a fear of abandonment or irrelevancy.

  • Reading every self-help book under the sun, buying organic food, and attending every meditation and yoga class within a five-mile radius, in order to feel more "spiritual," maybe no different than working fourteen-hour days at a corporate job, in order to feel more "accomplished."

 

In fact, recent studies show that people who recite positive affirmations but do not actually believe them, experience higher levels of stress (Wood, Peruvonic, & Lee, 2009). And, of course, stressful energy attracts more stressful energy!

 

Asking for what you want is somewhat of a fine art. Because it includes a willingness to embrace what you need.

 

And sometimes you need to grow...and often times, growth stings. Like ripping off a Bandaid to treat an underlying infection; it hurts in the short term, but in the long term, you will heal and function better than ever!

 

So how do we ask for what we want?

 

→ First, we say, “Universe, I pray for you to guide me on my journey to fulfilling my higher purpose, and to assist me in seeing the signs that will help clear the path to abundance.”

 

→ Second, when the Universe then sends you a miserable boyfriend or girlfriend (boss, business partner, estranged family member, etc.)  who stimulates your worthiness issues, realize the gift of this opportunity to remove that block from your soul.

 

Because if you DON’T recognize that difficult experience as a GROWTH OPPORTUNITY to embrace what you really need, that  energetic frequency will keep calling in situations that leave you feeling devalued, and continue to manifest a lack of income or terrible romantic relationships.

 

Whew! We’ve thrown a lot of information at you in this post, and it's starting to feel a little heady.

 

Don’t worry if it's hard to take in, because much of what we are describing is MOST EFFECTIVE when it is experienced through body and spirit, and the best way to integrate these two energy currents is with CREATIVITY!

 

And we are here to show you how to do just that.

 

The Shamanatrix, Kristen Boyer, and myself, Briana MacWilliam, are offering an opportunity to learn more about the Chakras, and focus in specifically on the first Chakra, your Root.

 

Come join us for our LIVE Webinar, Wednesday, March 8th, 2017 at 8pm EST:

 

Healing the Root Chakra:

Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies

 

 

During this LIVE event,  we will bust 3 pervasive and detrimental myths:

 

  1. Keeping cords to old partners and people is loving, and helps you stay in the love vibration.

  2. It’s selfish to put others needs first before your own and selfishness is a bad thing.

  3. Playfulness is a waste of time and takes away from productively getting things done.

 

Come join us on the 8th to find out how these myths are holding you back, and what you can do to shift your energy tied up in them.

 

We hope to see you there!


REGISTER HERE

 

To Learn more about Briana, check her out HERE

Tantra Punk Podcast

I'm delighted to have worked with the talented and wonderfully insightful Ben Lawson of Tantra Punk, founder of the Tantra Task Force and investigator of shamanic, tantric, and ecological healing arts. Makes sure to check Ben out and all of the amazing things he's up to at Tantrapunk.com.

Together we had a really interesting interview and dialogue about combining sacred sexuality with shamanism. If you'd like to check that out you can access that interview here:

Listen to the Podcast HERE

Episode #56: In this episode I’m am joined by Kristen Boyer. She caught my attention in a you tube video of a panel discussion on eros and entheogens. She described a recent chapter of her life as a profesional shamanatrix. I had dreamt of  such an archetype several years ago as I began to be intiated into the mysteries of sexual healing with psychedelic goddess worship

She has graciously blessed the podcast by sharing a bit from her memoires and engaging in a visioneering session with me on a more holistic and empowered future for dommes and their clients.

 

New Drumming Album "Drumming Journeys"

Check out my new album Drumming Journeys available for purchase!

Slip into a soothing shamanic state of consciousness with Drumming Journeys trance tracks.  Drumming Journeys is the prefect tool for meditation and shamanic journey work for deeper healing, The first track is perfect for calling in the sacred corners of the earth and setting up a protected and sacred space for any spiritual trance state. Choose from a 12 minute, 20 minute or 30 minute drumming tracks and let the journey unfold!

Manifesting The Relationship That You Want

Manifesting The Relationship That Your Want

as published in BeLightLiving.com

As a woman of 29 living and (previously) dating in New York City, I’ve had all sorts of dating encounters, all that you could imagine, and more often—nightmares—looking for love in this bustling city. I remember sitting on a park bench, chatting about the terrible NYC dating scene with a good friend of mine when she introduced me to the magic of manifestation.

            “I had this friend Abby and her and I were having a similar discussion, talking nightmare dating, and then we began to talk about what we wanted in a partner. Literally, two weeks later she met this guy who had every single one of the qualities that she mentioned. She met him at a concert that her friends bailed going to and they totally fell in love on the dance floor. They love the same music—which she mentioned wanting in a partner—and for her birthday he got her tickets to all these concerts that she wanted to go to, one for every month for 6 months. They’re practically married now, it’s insane! She just spoke it and it was done!”

            At the time I had heard a lot about manifestation but wasn’t sure how much I believed in it myself. What I did notice was that I was attracting the same patterns of men in my life, men that I needed to take care of, fixer-up-ers, so to speak. We were nearing the new moon, which is a wonderful peak time for manifestation, and I decided to put my manifestation magic to the test. I went home, sat outside on my porch in the cold, under the stars and filled up a sheet of paper--front and back-- with all the things in a partner that I wanted to manifest. I thought about all of the things that weren’t serving me in my past partnerships and I wrote down the equivalent opposite of each plunder, filling my page with personal qualities like compassion, warm heartedness, willingness to help others, interest in health and spirituality. I even made a note to attract someone who was a bit taller than me, with dark features, and who had a job that I appreciated but not a job that I did (I was beginning a shift from health coaching to shamanic healing at the time). I dug a hole in the center of my garden, tore up the pieces and buried them in the dirt. I’m giving it to the earth, I said to myself. I don’t want to be bothered with all of the details. Send me what is for my highest good, when the time is right.

            Of course, like any 26-year-old, I was rather impatient and what timing was deemed best for me for this partner’s arrival was not the timing I was happy to wait out. While out on the park bench with my friend that day I had made a joke, putting the call out for Aquarius men to come flow my way. Looking back at all of my more successful relationships I realized that all of my boyfriends had had birthdays in early February. They were all Aquarius men. Thinking that this would be helpful for me, I called in just that—wave upon waves of Aquarius men. And how frustrating was that! Several attractive Aquarians came into my life within weeks of each other, but none were great boyfriend material. A few of them strung me along and confused the heck out of me. After two months of this I pleaded with the heavens to get those Aquarians out of my love life. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it! I’d cry up at the night sky. I had unleashed Pandora’s Box of airy, whimsical, non-committal dudes. I guess I should have been more specific!

            Still, my manifestation wish lay buried under the ground. I had made no note about astrological signs in my wish list (thank GOD), and for a time, I decided to let all of my yearnings go and take the time to work on myself.

            Working on myself just happened to be the best thing that I could have done in the meantime! You see, when we are hurting or are entangled in chaos, that’s the mirror that we attract. Until we uproot what does not serve us and begin to root down the qualities and practices that do, we attract the equivalent of ourselves. I took about a year and a half off from that place of desperation and wanting and dedicated my love practice to myself instead of others. I began to shape shift the mirrors in my life and strengthened love for myself, and that’s when the time became right for exactly what I had prayed for. In fact, all at one time, 3 men appeared in my life who fit the bill of what I was calling out for. Soon enough, however, I began to see that one of these men lacked the compassion I was asking for and another lacked the commitment. There came a time when I watched the reflection of these men disappoint me, a pattern that I was sick and tired of seeing in my life and I decided to put an end to what was not serving me and I ended any romantic connection with them. It was when I told the universe, I’m done settling for these old patterns and I want a relationship that fully honors me that the magic began to happen.

            I had begun assisting a class at a holistic healing center in the city, coerced into taking an acupressure class by my director who placed me in the next available class, sad that I had been away for 8 weeks and didn’t get to select any classes to take that September. I barely knew what acupressure was about but went along with it, happy to get to assist and take a free class. When I walked into the class I immediately felt a deep love and appreciation for the teacher, William. It was like every cell in my being lit up to be in his presence. But I shook off the butterflies to stay present and professional, even though it was a volunteer job and I was contemplating dropping out of the assistance ship that Fall. After the class had ended, William and I had begun to do a trade of services. I was doing soul retrieval sessions with him and he was doing acupuncture with me.

             When I chose to release these other men that did not serve me, I refocused on honoring and loving myself deeply and bought myself a ring made of goldstone, that reminded me of my inner light. It was then as if a golden thread that connected William and me began to shorten, pulling us together by the heartstrings. His power animal, dragon was visiting me regularly, sharing secrets about William with me and William was being drawn to me too. The night that I was speaking on a panel for love and sexuality, William appeared in the audience at the event. I could feel his support and connection while I spoke, and immediately after the panel discussion commenced, my ring shattered into pieces in front of him. That weekend it was as if we were possessed by love for one another. Synchronicities and serendipities abounded, even thought we were hundreds of miles apart (I was on a business trip in Bethlehem, PA). I could feel my heart opening when he would think of me, and I could sense when he was reading one of my emails and responding to me. We were psychically connected.

            When I returned to NYC that following Monday, I went right to William’s office for another one of our trades. This time he sat me down to tell me that he had fallen in love with me, from spirit, and that he didn’t know how he could continue on with the trade considering his feelings. At that point I admitted the deep love connection I had felt with him since the moment we had met, and our love was sealed in that moment.

 

In the weeks following our new romantic connection, I traveled back to my old neighborhood, a few blocks away from my old garden where I had buried the wish list. I was on my way to my former neighbor’s house for dinner, walking along the opposite side of the street to where I traveled on my old commute. Something suddenly caught my eye across the street and I had to do a double take. It was as if I were seeing twinkles of light in the air over my old walking route. Then I heard a voice that came from above me, within me, and beside me at the same time that said, You manifested William with those wishes over there. Remember the wishes you used to make on your way to work? Suddenly it had occurred to me that I had made the same wish every day, while walking on that particular block. I remembered that I had dated a cute Greek guy in the days before I had entered into a nightmare relationship in my early 20’s. When I moved to Astoria I often thought about dating another Greek guy. Astoria was crawling with Greeks, many of them attractive, and I daydreamed about having one as a boyfriend. Why can’t I meet a nice Greek guy from Astoria? I would repeat in my head while walking to work on that stretch of sidewalk. It was as if I was mindlessly thinking it everyday on that block. In shock, I realized that I had actually manifested a nice Greek guy from Astoria. William was born and raised in Astoria, NY!!! Your prayer was answered; the ominous voice seemed to speak. We manifested him for you.

            William and I have been together for a year and a half and my heart has grown in ways that I didn’t realize that it could. We are mirrors for one another, which makes things difficult and easy at the same time. Our birthdays are 5 days apart (we’re two Libras if you’re wondering), plus a 20-year difference (opps, I wasn’t specific about that part either) and sometimes it’s crazy because it feels like I’m dating myself! So, do I think the manifestation trick is possible? ABSOLUTELY!

 

Let me give you the best manifestation advice I can give for manifesting a partner:

 

1.     Be specific! Write down all of the odds and ends that you’re looking for in a partnership. Literally everything and anything you can think of that you want.

 

2.     Be careful what you wish for, especially what you say a loud, because your prayers are heard and your prayers are answered!

 

3.     You can call in certain manifestations, even if you already have a partner that can make things better. You can call in better sex, more cuddle time, etc. and your dreams can manifest fully! Just be careful that you call those things into your current relationship or you may find that somebody new shows up to give you those things. It’s happened to me before, oops. This can be a good thing or a bad thing, depending on what you’re calling in.

 

 

4.     Be patient and work on yourself in the meantime. The more you improve yourself, the better the manifestation will be to mirror you!

 

5.     Be willing to say ‘NO’ to what does not meet your manifestation

requirements. Sometimes this is just the test before the real manifest. This may aid you in shedding the old patterns that do not serve you so that you can really receive what you’ve been calling in.

 

So if you have something good, make it better. If you are ready for romance, call it in—exactly how you want it. And don’t be so surprised when you get it. Just receive it with open arms and an open heart. Happy Valentine’s Day!

 

The Cave

The Cave

an original poem by Kristen Boyer

They say that the world is beautiful, perfect the way that it is
With it's sadness and judgement, anger and self-hatred
Directed at others and hidden behind a mask of lies
They say that this is perfect, they say that this is the way
But I am not so sure I want this world the way that it is
My heart knows that something better lies without or perhaps within
So in the deep of the night I am awoken by the moon
She tells me to enter the deep and fumble through the dark
Through a tiny opening in the earth
The cave swallows me in with it's jagged mouth, it's sharp teeth
I fumble, I bruise my knees tripping through the dark
I cannot see the moon but I hear her voice loud and clear
She tells me to trust, she tells me I'm home in the dark
I must go within to come into my light
I trip and I fall over the rocks in the cold, coming through the belly of the earth
I fumble past the stones and I fall and scrape my arms
I am bloodied, I am broken, I am whole
And the moon, she keeps on shining, even when I think I can't see
But I know that she's still there, above me, guiding in my mind
Then finally, when I'm on the verge of giving up and giving in
I see the light at the end of the cave
I when I smile in relief and I recognize dear moon
I emerge to find that she was only a reflection of the sun
Even brighter and better on the other side

My New Book: Between the Light and the Shadow: Transmuting Inner Darkness through Soul Retrieval

I am so pleased to announce that I am birthing a new book on shamanism called Between the Light and the Shadow: Transmuting Inner Darkness through Soul Retrieval expected to be completed Summer 2015!

My shamanic work has been growing and shifting over the years and my spirits have been nudging me to write a book focusing on soul retrieval and depossession to serve as a tool for education and inspiration. I have to say that the process of writing has been bringing me so much joy, especially because this doesn't feel at all like work--it feels like play-- and instead of me creating from a cognitive space, I am allowing this piece to flow through my heart. I almost feel like I can't take credit for it because it's flowing straight from spirit, with my own stories and flair, I suppose, but right from the spirits who encourage me to use my voice to bring their messages.

I'm delighted to give you a little teaser from a segment on past lives, a story called The Mind Blowing Head Wound. I prayed and prayed and asked spirit to bring through the stories and case studies that needed to be told to illustrate the concepts, and like a flood after days of torrential rain, new people with fascinating healing stories began to come into my life, honored to receive the healing work and honored to have their stories shared with the world. This true story is a little taste of what is to come and I hope that you enjoy it as much as I do!

The Mind Blowing Head Wound

I met James at a healing themed party in Queens one night and was thrilled when a few of us started up a discussion about past lives and past life memories. James was elated to find a group of like-minded people to share his recollection of past life memories that he had been experiencing over the course of his life. He seemed relieved to have safe space held for him where he wouldn’t come off as crazy broaching the subject of past identities.

James recalled his most recent past life as an entertainer in the New York/L.A. scene in the 1970’s. “It was crazy when I came to visit New York City for the first time. I was alone on a trip when I was 13 years old, and I couldn’t explain it, but I knew the city streets like the back of my hand. I knew where all of the nightclubs were and I knew where all of the bars and hotspots were too. The layout was so familiar to me, I didn’t even need to look at a map. It’s like I knew it by heart.” James paused in the conversation, turned his gaze down and frowned a bit. “I know how I died too. I remember it so clearly.” James paused and pushed his glasses up against his brow. “I was using heavy drugs and I was in a dark place.” He brushed his hand up against the back right side of his head and kept it there. “I put a gun in my mouth and I shot myself through the head. I was living in LA then. I shot myself in my apartment.” He paused and looked up at me again. “I’ve had terrible migraines all of my life, none of the doctors have ever been able to help alleviate them.”

The energy of James’s story was so strong I could feel his truth saturating the tale. He looked stuck, bewildered. His mouth slightly agape and his hand still rubbing the exit wound on the back of his head.

“Do you want it back?” I said. He looked at me with confusion. “Do you want that part of your soul back, from that life?” I repeated.

He nodded his head and I closed my eyes and immediately saw the apartment room in LA. It had low ceilings and it was a dark stuffy room. It felt like there were a lot of heavy energies in the room, perhaps stuck soul fragments, demons lost in the room, perhaps from heavy drug use and prostitution in the building. It felt like the walls were closing in. Then I saw James in that life. His spirit rushed to me.

I shouldn’t have done it, aww I shouldn’t have done it. I didn’t mean it, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done it. I really shouldn’t have done it. I saw his past life soul part pacing around repeating the same lines. I shouldn’t have done it, ohh I made a mistake! I shouldn’t have done it.

I asked the past life soul part if he wanted to come back and bring the desire to live with him. I saw Jesus come to comfort the side of the past life part. “It’s safe to come back now, it’s okay,” I soothed him. “You’re forgiven and you can come back to James now and help him.” The soul part began to grow brighter with relief and with the help of Jesus we brought him back. I blew the energy of James’s past life directly into the spot on his head he had been tending to.

The girl sitting to James’s right side on the couch jumped back in surprise. “Wow! I could see that shift,” she said. “Something just happened in his head.”

James’s eyes became wide and he patted the top of his head in a different way. “I can feel my brain now. Wow, its like that whole side of my brain’s been paralyzed for the last 24 years! It feels completely different now!”

 

What was so interesting about the retrieval was that I had the chance to see James notice new parts of himself emerge and integrate over the course of the evening. Usually my sessions are done in office and my clients leave before I can bear witness to the bigger shifts they experience afterwards. It was quite funny to see James make new connections in his mind about blockages that he’s had due to the retardation of certain functions in that region of the brain. “I’ve had intimacy issues in the past because of the part of my brain that’s been shut off,” he postulated.

Later, we did a retrieval for more of James’s past life around the reason for his suicide. I was guided to an image of James’s wife. She was sad, withdrawn, and I watched her love for James decay over a period of time. It was as if her heart connection was shutting down in relation to their partnership. I saw a flash of James in that past life with a prostitute in his bed, while he was still married. The scene returned to that of his wife, disconnecting from James because she could feel, or was somehow aware of his lack of faithfulness. Reluctantly, I saw her turn her heart away from James and to other men to comfort her. It felt like she still longed for James but needed to energetically sever the connection, take on other lovers, in order to forget him. I saw this shift in her deeply affect James. It darkened his heart and robbed him of the passion to love as purely and his passion to be alive. I was taken back to the scene of his suicide I had seen before. The spirits commented that that was a contributing reason for taking his life.

I asked the spirits if they would bring his heart back and I was taken to yet another scene. This time James was in a different past life. It felt like it was Holland in the 1600’s. I could summon this because I saw the tulips everywhere across the countryside. I saw James--this time he was a young Dutch boy. I saw his beloved. She was a young little blonde girl who lived across the street in their quaint little village. Her energy was so innocent, so pure. I watched him interact with her as a young boy. They were truly in love, and in such a pure, sweet way. I saw that James recognized her soul during his life in the 1970’s. She had the same sweetness about her. When they first connected in that life, their love shared the same lightness and purity about it as in that previous lifetime in Holland, but as James became an entertainer, his energy shifted and his ego expanded and their love suffered as a result. He wasn’t meant to share love with her after he lost his purity. I saw her begin to distance herself—and her heart—from him. I saw her finding joy with another man. I noticed that her love was not as light and as free with this new partner, but it was more than she could express to James at that point. Part of her heart had died because of his unfaithfulness and shift to stardom. As a reaction to her loss of love for him, he too began to lose faith in love, and his path became increasingly dark and reckless. The drugs began to consume him and the suicidal thoughts crept in.

            Can we bring his heart back? I asked my spirits and watched as they prepared the soul parts to come back to him. I saw the sweet innocence of the love he share with his wife in the two past lives and I brought back the love that they shared before James’s career shift in the 1970’s. I blew the love connection and desire to live and love freely back into his heart. I rattled over him to seal in the pieces and asked James to contact me again in two weeks to follow up on the changes.

            Two weeks passed by and James had already sent me several messages about his various shifts and epiphanies. I even had the opportunity to attend a stand-up comedic show that he performed at in New York, not knowing that he would be a guest comic! As I watched him on stage he made a few jokes about death that I really had to laugh at, because I knew of his deep relationship to the subject. He laughed about how we bury our dead in the strangest positions, with the hands down, cupped over the pelvis. James began to move about the stage showing off various, more attractive poses. At one point he struck a very Hollywoodesque pose with his left hand poised up against his head as if he were having fashion shots taken. Every couple of lines he paused and said, “goddamnit,” then would move onto the next joke.

            After the show, James rushed up to me, his face painted with delight. “How are you?” I asked with excitement. “How’s your head feeling?”

            James shook his head, his mouth open in disbelief. “It’s like I feel my entire head right now in a way I have never felt before. I feel so much more present. It’s even like I’m walking differently, like I’m using my brain more fully or something.” He paused and smiled. “I kept saying goddamnit up there because I would pause and just feel more of myself up on stage like I haven’t before. It’s been crazy! My head is still tingling and it’s like I’m feeling so much more connected to my heart!”

            A couple of days later James phoned me up again. More shifts were happening for him that he wanted to share. “I realized that I’ve been getting better with my presence on stage and I’ve been remembering something that comedy coaches have been saying for years that just didn’t resonate until now. They kept saying that I wasn’t emotionally connected to my material and that it’s like I wasn’t in my body when I was on stage and now I get it. Ever since the retrieval I’m in my body in a way that I wasn’t before, it’s like I have a fuller range of motion that I’m now able to utilize on stage. Since I got my brain back my emotions are much more balanced and my heart feels better. I went through a period a while back where my emotions were all over the place and I finally feel like they’re all balancing out. Another funny thing is that I’m not getting acid reflux anymore. It’s all really amazing! It feels great!”

            I’m still in touch with James and love to hear how things continue to shift and surface for him.