Initiation by the Plants

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Today I want to share a bit about my sacred plant medicine journeys into the realm of the plants in 2014 which feels like lifetimes ago by now...

I haven't talked about my training with the plants too much, in fact, I didn't have the courage to share about the wonderful jungle medicines I discovered years ago and have been working with until recently, when the spirit of one plant in particular asked me to work with it more deeply and share it with YOU (which is kinda a big deal...because THIS PLANT IS SEEKING YOU...)

I just shared a video about it in my Facebook Group Re-Ignite Your Inner Light with Soul Retrieval...which you should totally join if you haven't already!

Here's the story...

I was first introduced to the highly medicinal resin from Dragon’s Blood in 2014 during my studies with the Shipibo people, the indigenous tribal peoples of the Amazon Jungle outside of a remote village a few hours travel (via car and then jungle hike) outside of Iquitos, Peru.
I’d been working with plant medicine shamans for a few years and kept being led, sycnhronistically to shamanic students and practitioners who’d learned from Don Miguel and Don Enrique from this particular village in Peru. And it somehow felt as though the plants from the jungle were calling me to the rainforest, more than the indigenous peoples themselves. So upon invitation from one of my teachers, I embarked on what would later prove to become one of my most challenging journeys—and most rewarding—that I’d ever been on.
And of course it coincided with the peak of my Saturn’s Return, a challenging planetary transit that happens for all humans between 28-30, so it’s no surprise that this journey into the realm of the plants would prove to be so challenging. But not without great reward.
I worked with a myriad of plants there, from poisonous beans that made me go blind and required quick wit and me to binge drink water to expel their toxins (and parasites!) to plants that would visit you in your dreams in spirit form and bring you in connection with your divine purpose and light. And while most of the other students on our journey sat with a few medicinal plants in between days of relaxation and meditation, the shamans warned me that my training would be different…more intense…and require more medicine than the other travelers on our journey.
Because I was the most sick. And I needed the deepest treatment while I was there.
I’ll never forget that meeting I had with Don Enrique and what he said to me.
“You’re different then the others,” he said. “You have a special relationship with the spirits of the plants. You can see them and you can talk to them. You have a gift to work very deeply here.”
And so my plant medicine initiation began. And it sure as hell wasn’t easy. Some of the medicines literally kicked my ass and I was flattened out on the maloka floor for days on end, unable to sleep, eat, or stand. I remember the laughter of the rest of the group outside who opted out of some of the more difficult medicines, the same ones I took 3 times because that’s what the shaman had prescribed to me.
While I was wide open from these experiences a woman on the retreat who had some drama with my ex-boyfriend verbally attacked me and put a curse on me that took years to unravel, and came with it’s own plethora of lessons I later realized my soul had contracted into learning. I’m grateful because these same lessons inspired me to learn and share energy protection methods with others and create an online course to help others lift curses, clear their energy and learn easy and effective methods for protecting themselves throughout all situations (Check out my free online training for How to Protect Your Energy here).
And by the end of the trip Don Miguel, one of the Shipibo shamans, offered me several gifts from the plants and sat me down for a heart-to-heart discussion.
“It’s very clear that you’re a curandera (the indigenous term for a female plant medicine shaman) and you have to power to help many people. I feel the spirits of the people in North America where you live who are very sick who need your help. They need these medicines and many of them are too sick to come to the jungle. They will never make it here so you have to bring it to them.”
With that Don Miguel handed me bottles of medicine.
“This is a gift,” he said. “For the people need these medicines and you are their carrier. Bring the medicines to the people.”
Then he reached into his pocket and brought out a wooden ring, crafted from one of their most sacred plants, the flying tree called Noya Rao and he put it on my wedding ring finger.
“It’s a gift,” he said. “Because I see who you are and that you are a curandera. I know one when I see one,” he said with a smile as he gifted me the plants.


It took me many years to be open to these messages. When I got home I worked with the medicines. I shared them with some of the people closest to me, and many of them were very difficult to work with outside of the jungle.
North America, and New York City in particular, are not always conducive to the energy of the plants. And many of them can be tough on the organ systems, and difficult to integrate in such an energetic, bustling city.
But out of the many medicines I was given, and some that I bought from the center, there was one medicine that stood the test of time. One medicine that I found I’d go back to time and time again…even while I was living in Brooklyn…
Stay tuned for my next blog post to learn what this one, versatile, safe, medicine was.

Until next time!


Kristen Von Foxx

Welcome to 2018 Winter Eclipse Season

Eclipse Season! Astrology! Shamanic Journeying! Palm Reading! Oh my...

Well, damn....

Eclipse Season is officially here! Can you feel it? Did yesterday's Full Moon Lunar Eclipse (+Blue Moon, Blood Moon, Super Moon) have you facing BIG internal and external shifts? Did any unexpected events occur or did some old stories rise to the surface to be reviewed and released?

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How to Get Out of Your Head and Into Your Heart

Our minds are meant to gather information, break down thoughts, and rationalize information flowing to us through all our senses. And our minds are marvelous tools that help us organize and process data, but it's easy to get caught up in the thinking mind, or the "monkey mind" as I like to call it. And this can unfortunately cause us to dial down our other senses and ignore some of our most powerful tools, like the power of our heart.

Our heart is one of our greatest assets because, when accessed, we can determine what is truth and what is in alignment with us. But many of us forget that our heart can "see" and "think". In fact, shamanic communities around the world have been using the energy of the heart to see into other realms and bring through guidance and wisdom.

In fact, you may be surprised to find that when you pose a question to the mind, you get a totally different answer than when you ask your heart. Don't believe me? Then try this easy mediation to listen in to what your heart has to say!

Try this easy technique to de-stress and get out of your head and into your heart! It’s amazing how different life can feel, and how easy it can be to get clear intuitive answers about what’s best for you when you are grounded and centered in your heart!


How I Became The Shamanatrix

Sometimes you just have to get real.
Tell the truth.
Be at your most vulnerable so you can be the most real version of yourself possible.
Sometimes you have to step out of your comfort zone so you can step into your power and step into the best version of yourself possible.
Own your shadow. Embrace your light.
Today I just did the scariest and most uncomfortable thing I’ve ever done or dreamed of doing. I put myself out there on YouTube, telling my story of who I am, how I got here, and why I’m so passionate about what I do.
And I got real.
This was incredibly hard for me because I know how controversial and dark some of my story is. Maybe you already know some of my story and my colorful past, maybe that’s why we’re connected now, or maybe you have no idea who I was or what I went through to get here.
But at the end of the day—my shadowy past, and my unique experiences I’ve had along the road of life—are the reason I’m doing this shamanic healing work. And for all it, I am eternally grateful.
For the last year I’ve been working hard behind the scenes to create a new platform for sharing the same shamanic tools that have given me purpose, power, and a second chance at life.
I’ve been working on rebranding and re-launching as “The Shamanatrix” because I’m ready to own every aspect of my self, my story and my purpose, and because I want to offer you even more tools to reclaim your power and your life.
Because YOU’RE worth it. Every little bit of you. Every smidgen. Every freckle. Every flaw. Because you are your own closest ally. Especially when you embrace every bit of your self, whether you like all of those parts or not.
See, we all have shadow and sometimes we run from our past, our traumas, our stories and we intentionally disown some part of our self that could actually be our most powerful part. But that usually just causes more pain, self-splitting and sadness.
And it’s these wounds that want our love, acceptance and attention so we can truly heal them and embrace them for the wisdom and power they contain.
So today I want to challenge you to give a little bit more love to yourself.
All of yourself.
Especially the parts that maybe you don’t usually value, nurture or nourish. I want you to cut yourself a break and be gentle and easy on that part of yourself. And I want you to embrace it with everything you’ve got. And thank this part of yourself for existing, for showing up as a powerful teacher.
And then I want you to listen. And see what beautiful message this part of you has for yourself. Because I bet you there’s loads of wisdom in that little part of yourself. And sometimes we’ve got to get real with ourselves to get at it.
But I guarantee there’s a message there for you.
And that it’s gold, and that if you embrace it, accept it and love it exactly as is, that you’ll begin to love yourself more and become even more awesomely powerful than you already are.
So will you do that for me?
Will you do that for you?
I hope you do. Because I want to see you shine, my friend. I really do.
And I want you to check out my story of how I became The Shamanatrix. Because I’m ready to get real with you. And because I want to continue this dialogue and offer you a ton of free meditations, journeys, and information about shamanic healing because I want you to have all the tools possible to be in your power and shine your radiant light.
Because you’re worth it.
So make sure to subscribe to my channel to learn more! I’ll be offering free videos on my new YouTube Channel, The Shamanatrix Corner, every two weeks. You won't wanna miss any of it…I promise.

How I Became the Shamanatrix
Big hugs and high fives for embracing all of your fantastic self! Magic until next time,
Kristen Boyer
The Shamanatrix

Strengthening the Solar Plexus

Woohoo! It’s Springtime and I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling this super fun, fiery Aries flow this week because so many wonderful things are going on like an awesome chakra Webinar and my YouTube Channel launch!
Briana and I have been working hard on our chakras for the last month, putting together an awesome Healing Through the Chakras Course and we’re getting geared up for our next Webinar THIS Wednesday, April, 5th.


(LIVE Webinar, 1.5 CE's) Healing the Solar Plexus

Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies

LIVE Webinar: April 5th, 2017 @ 8pm

Applicable for self help and mental health professionals.

(1.5 Live event, continuing education contact hours for LCATs in New York State.)

At the inner core of each of us spin wheel-like energy centers or vortices. These energy centers are referred to as "chakras" and each one reflects an aspect of our inner and outer experience, as well as the degree of consciousness we have around those experiences.

When these chakras are in balance they are able to integrate mind, body, and spirit. They help us organize our life force energy, and provide a powerful tool for mental, emotional, spiritual, social, and physical growth. But when they are out of balance, we may find ourselves continually stuck in old patterns, unable to evolve or break free.

Do you ever find yourself struggling with...

Standing in your power/standing up for what is right?

Delegating tasks and keeping organized?

Feeling like you are ‘enough’?

If so, you may be struggling with Solar Plexus imbalances.


These beliefs include three common myths:

"If I just had more_______then I could…" Whatever you have isn’t good enough.

"I’m not the expert, I’ll let someone else who knows more, with more experience than me to take charge."

"If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." Being strong means that I have to do everything on my own.

But are these myths true, or simply the product of limiting beliefs?


In this course, the Shamanatrix, Kristen Boyer MPS, HC and Briana MacWilliam ATR-BC, LCAT, will explore mindfulness-based practices in treatment, using the Solar Plexus as a frame for understanding the impact of energetic imbalances in the body. We will explore how these imbalances create limiting beliefs that perpetuate unhealthy patterns of living and loving, in adulthood.

Additionally, we debunk the above myths by exploring the the following truths:

Once you surrender to yourself, the doors will open for you.

You are just as worthy and as powerful as anyone else is! No one in the world has the same vibration, perspective and set of experiences as you do.

Being strong includes the ability to identify your needs and receive support from others.

After this webinar you will be able to…

  • Name the shadow aspect of the Solar Plexus.
  • Identify three “truths” about working with Solar Plexus.
  • Identify at least two observable behaviors of someone experiencing Solar Plexus imbalances.
  • Implement guided meditation and art making in working with Solar Plexus imbalances.

You will also receive…

  • A Guided meditation for the Solar Plexus
  • An outline of the presentation
  • Handouts to assist with working on Solar Plexus imbalances, in practice
  • A Free introductory Lecture to all 7 Chakras
  • A Free Introductory Guided meditation to all 7 Chakras

This will be a live webinar event, open to questions, comments and discussion with participants.

Make sure to log on because we’ll also be giving you access to a free introduction for our upcoming live mastermind Course, Healing Through the Chakras this summer! Score!
Make sure to join in for our live Webinar tomorrow at 8pm EST

And then stay tuned for this Thursday when I’ll finally be launching my exciting new YouTube Channel, The Shamanatrix Corner. I’ve literally been slaving away at this project for over a year and I’m excited to share with you my first video this Thursday at 5pm. So keep your eyes peeled for my next email when I’ll be sharing the link with you and sharing my personal story and mission statement about the channel. I seriously can;t wait to share it with you!

Big hugs and Springtime love!

The Shamanatrix

February Updates and Classes

Hello my lovely community! How I've missed you all so much as I've been busy hibernating for the last few months, with my nose to the grindstone working hard on a number of fabulous projects that I can't with to share with all of you!
Firstly I hope you all had a wonderful start to the new year and have been manifesting everything you've been wanting in your life. Although we've been in a challenging shift with everything that's been going on in the world I hope you have been able to find peace within. These series of national events, including Trump's inauguration have been stirring up the collective shadow and many of you have been reaching out asking for help navigating the energy from the collective consciousness. My main advice has been to encourage you to remember what you love, what you desire and what you're passionate about and work diligently on creating what you want for your life for your community.

That being said, I can't wait to tell you about a NEW Live Mastermind Class I've been diligently developing for YOU with the wonderful and talented Art Therapist, Briana MacWilliam called Healing Through the Chakras Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies.
Check out an article Briana MacWilliam wrote on my blog! She’s fabulous!

In this Mastermind course we’ll be diving into each of the 7 Chakras, teaching you how to clear blockages, activate and manifest through each of your energy centers. This course gives you informative lectures on each of the Chakras, articles, art therapy exercises, quizzes to identify where you’re strong and where you’re stuck, and meditations to help you unlock, unblock and activate your energy centers!
But to get you warmed up for the upcoming Masterclass, we’ll be offering 7 Live Webinars on each of the Chakras. The Webinars will be $35 and go toward continuing education credits for Creative Arts therapists. So go ahead and mark these dates down in your calendar!
Root Chakra: Wednesday, March 8th at 8pm EST
Sacral Chakra: Wednesday, March 22nd at 8pm EST
Solar Plexus Chakra: Wednesday, April 5th at 8pm EST
Heart Chakra: Wednesday, April 19th at 8pm EST
Throat Chakra: Wednesday, May 3rd at 8pm EST
Third Eye Chakra: Wednesday, May 17th at 8pm EST
Crown Chakra: Wednesday, May 31st at 8pm EST

To Register for our first Root Chakra Webinar Click HERE

Speaking of manifesting what you want, I wanted to let you know that I will be offering my popular, Manifestation class live for the last time. It's been such a hit that I'm turning this one into an online course, but will be offering it again for one last time in person. But act fast on tickets because space is super limited!

Manifesting Your Heart's Desire: Using Ritual to Materialize Your Dreams

Sunday, March 19th 4-6:30pm
City Wellness Collective
141 West 28th street, Suite #301
New York, NY 10011


3 Keys to Manifesting Your Dreams: The “Sacred Marriage” of Consciousness and Matter

3 Keys to Manifesting Your Dreams: The “Sacred Marriage” of Consciousness and Matter

 Article and Artwork by Briana MacWilliam MPS, ATR-BC, LCAT

Article and Artwork by Briana MacWilliam MPS, ATR-BC, LCAT


How many of you, on the eve of 2017, pulled out a paper and pen, wrote down with due diligence your new year's resolutions, and then burned them, buried them, or folded them in a scented envelope and stuffed it under your mattress, with a prayer that your dreams may come true, in 356 days?

How much earnest intent did you bleed into those words, watching the paper burn? How many tears did you stuff in that envelope, your heart in your throat?

...And how long did it take before you gave up already? How much faith do you still have that you will see the manifestation of your intentions? That your wishes will be granted?

Why is it so easy to backslide into old patterns of living and loving? Why can’t we just seem to “get it together” enough to remedy our finances? To take that vacation we’ve been planning for years? To finish that project we started? Or to start that project we’ve been dreaming about for years?

The short answer: your energy is blocked.

The long answer: your energy is blocked, and if you want to unblock it, you would be best served by figuring out how energy works, so you can grease your wheels and get this buggy back on track!

How to do that?

I give you, the Chakra System.

The Chakra system is a philosophical model of the Universe. Chakras came to the West by means of the traditional practice of Yoga, which is a discipline that uses mental and physical practices to integrate matter and Spirit. This is achieved through several steps of  expanding consciousness; the Chakras represent these steps.

The main seven Chakras are created by the combination of two active principles, consciousness and matter. Consciousness may be perceived as entering through the crown chakra and moving downward through the body; I like to refer to as top-down processing, Anoeda Judith, in her book, eastern body western mind, refers to this as "the current of manifestation" (1996, p. 14). As the flow of consciousness moves down, the chakras and their related elements become increasingly dense, allowing for the embodiment of our dreams.

Secondly, we have an upward current, which moves from this place of density to ethereal consciousness. I call this bottom-up processing; Judith (1996) refers to this as "the current of liberation" (p.14). If we cannot create spaciousness around our more physical experiences, we cannot reflect, change, grow or expand. Similarly without the embodiment of intention, we remain scattered dreamers unable to make commitments or put our thoughts into action.

The combination of both currents is the ideal, and considered to be a "sacred marriage;" the congress of Heaven and earth. This union of opposites creates limitless possibilities.

When we are blocked in any one or more of our chakras, we may fall into habitual patterns that render us stuck, throwing us continually back into survival mode. Or, we may be unable to ground ourselves, lost in a flood of overwhelm and ideas, dissociated from the real world.

Unblocking a chakra requires addressing the problem on at least three levels: 1) clearing out the blockages, 2) clarifying your needs versus your wants, and 3) learning how to ask for what you want, and and be willing to embrace what you need, when it arrives.

  1. Clearing Out Energetic Blockages in the Chakras

The first step in manifesting your dreams involves a clearing out of energetic blockages in your chakras. Cleansing the chakras involves an acknowledgement and releasing of Karmic vows, soul contracts, and wounds of shame from past lives.There may also be ancestral wounds that we carry in our lineage.  


At best, these vows may simply be no longer serving us. At worst, these vows may be actively interfering in our lives now by keeping us from being all we can be today.


If your Higher Self has led you here, to this post, it means that you have fully experienced the outcomes of your action in taking the vows and you are ready to let them go.


All you need to do is ask!


  1. Clarifying Your Needs vs. Your Wants


But before you ask for a clearing in order to manifest the life of your dreams, you must clarify your needs versus your wants. And getting to the root of your desires means confronting whatever you dislike in your life as a reflection of your own shadow; a mirror of all the parts that you have repressed.


The “you” that is creating your own reality is your transcendental self in its entirety, which means it's more than likely you have limited conscious access to a large part of yourself that is calling in your life circumstances.


However, just because a large part of yourself is not knowable, it doesn’t mean that you have no power to create change in your life at all. But you must have the passion and the willingness to step outside of your comfort zone, which is the ONLY WAY  to get to the root of your desires.


To clearly examine your desires, you must step outside of judgment. It is the labeling of a desire as "bad" that sends it to the basement of repression. Rather, we should try to examine a desire for its underlying dynamics--what is the underlying need and fear?


Typically, a person’s desire is an externalized goal or reward (such as social approval and physical manifestations of it, like wealth or power) that he or she thinks will make him or her happy, but this pursuit actually impedes this person from getting what he or she needs internally (spiritual and emotional gratification).


For example, perhaps a girl felt ostracized as a child, so she wants to achieve celebrity because she thinks it will make people like her. But with celebrity achieved, she realizes that even though she might have millions of fans, they worship her as an object or a symbol of their own projections. In reality, people only like her for her popularity and she can’t trust anyone enough to engage in intimate relationships. The achievement of her external want actually prevented the gratification of her internal need to belong.


Sometimes, what you think you want won’t make you happy!


  1. Learning How to Ask for What You Want, and Embrace What you Need


By now you must be wondering…


“How do I know if what I want is a reflection of my Shadow Self, or a valid request in alignment with my authentic needs?”


The short answer, “The Universe will let you know.”


You might have heard this explained through The Law of Attraction, which is based on three principles of Quantum Physics:


  1. Everything is energy

  2. Everything is connected

  3. You create your own reality


Essentially, these principles amount to the idea that with concentrated energy and focused intention, you can change your reality in very real and physical ways. Particularly if your energy is “entangled” with another energy cluster (like, another person, for example).


Thus, “Ask and ye shall receive,” would appear to be both a scientific and spiritual truism. The only thing is, you might not realize you’ve gotten what you’ve asked for.


Because as we mentioned above, often we are not fully cognizant of our own motivations (or energetic frequencies) tied up in the question.


And frequently, the seed of want, is fear.


  • Fear of vulnerability…Leads to a desire to prove your strength

  • Fear of failure...Leads to  a desire to prove competence/capability

  • Fear of worthlessness...Leads to a desire to prove worthiness and seek approval

  • Fear of abandonment...Leads to a desire to prove your independence (or hold tighter)


Because of this, you may think to yourself…


“I'm writing all these affirmations and I'm trying so hard to do all the right things, yet I'm still getting the same results!"


In fact, you’re still doing the same thing, you're just reframing it. For example:


  • It’s not righteous to bully a bully, it's the same behavior repackaged from a different perspective.

  • It's not generous to give more than is asked, it's invasive and rooted in a desire to induce dependency, in order to acquire control and stave off a fear of abandonment or irrelevancy.

  • Reading every self-help book under the sun, buying organic food, and attending every meditation and yoga class within a five-mile radius, in order to feel more "spiritual," maybe no different than working fourteen-hour days at a corporate job, in order to feel more "accomplished."


In fact, recent studies show that people who recite positive affirmations but do not actually believe them, experience higher levels of stress (Wood, Peruvonic, & Lee, 2009). And, of course, stressful energy attracts more stressful energy!


Asking for what you want is somewhat of a fine art. Because it includes a willingness to embrace what you need.


And sometimes you need to grow...and often times, growth stings. Like ripping off a Bandaid to treat an underlying infection; it hurts in the short term, but in the long term, you will heal and function better than ever!


So how do we ask for what we want?


→ First, we say, “Universe, I pray for you to guide me on my journey to fulfilling my higher purpose, and to assist me in seeing the signs that will help clear the path to abundance.”


→ Second, when the Universe then sends you a miserable boyfriend or girlfriend (boss, business partner, estranged family member, etc.)  who stimulates your worthiness issues, realize the gift of this opportunity to remove that block from your soul.


Because if you DON’T recognize that difficult experience as a GROWTH OPPORTUNITY to embrace what you really need, that  energetic frequency will keep calling in situations that leave you feeling devalued, and continue to manifest a lack of income or terrible romantic relationships.


Whew! We’ve thrown a lot of information at you in this post, and it's starting to feel a little heady.


Don’t worry if it's hard to take in, because much of what we are describing is MOST EFFECTIVE when it is experienced through body and spirit, and the best way to integrate these two energy currents is with CREATIVITY!


And we are here to show you how to do just that.


The Shamanatrix, Kristen Boyer, and myself, Briana MacWilliam, are offering an opportunity to learn more about the Chakras, and focus in specifically on the first Chakra, your Root.


Come join us for our LIVE Webinar, Wednesday, March 8th, 2017 at 8pm EST:


Healing the Root Chakra:

Mindfulness and Creative Arts Therapies



During this LIVE event,  we will bust 3 pervasive and detrimental myths:


  1. Keeping cords to old partners and people is loving, and helps you stay in the love vibration.

  2. It’s selfish to put others needs first before your own and selfishness is a bad thing.

  3. Playfulness is a waste of time and takes away from productively getting things done.


Come join us on the 8th to find out how these myths are holding you back, and what you can do to shift your energy tied up in them.


We hope to see you there!



To Learn more about Briana, check her out HERE

Tantra Punk Podcast

I'm delighted to have worked with the talented and wonderfully insightful Ben Lawson of Tantra Punk, founder of the Tantra Task Force and investigator of shamanic, tantric, and ecological healing arts. Makes sure to check Ben out and all of the amazing things he's up to at

Together we had a really interesting interview and dialogue about combining sacred sexuality with shamanism. If you'd like to check that out you can access that interview here:

Listen to the Podcast HERE

Episode #56: In this episode I’m am joined by Kristen Boyer. She caught my attention in a you tube video of a panel discussion on eros and entheogens. She described a recent chapter of her life as a profesional shamanatrix. I had dreamt of  such an archetype several years ago as I began to be intiated into the mysteries of sexual healing with psychedelic goddess worship

She has graciously blessed the podcast by sharing a bit from her memoires and engaging in a visioneering session with me on a more holistic and empowered future for dommes and their clients.


New Drumming Album "Drumming Journeys"

Check out my new album Drumming Journeys available for purchase!

Slip into a soothing shamanic state of consciousness with Drumming Journeys trance tracks.  Drumming Journeys is the prefect tool for meditation and shamanic journey work for deeper healing, The first track is perfect for calling in the sacred corners of the earth and setting up a protected and sacred space for any spiritual trance state. Choose from a 12 minute, 20 minute or 30 minute drumming tracks and let the journey unfold!